When I first met my twin flame, I thought he was my soulmate, and we’d be together forever. It was like we could read each other’s minds. I would be thinking something and he would say it out loud. Sometimes, I would just be sitting there missing him, and my phone would buzz with a text from him.
Other times, it felt like he was right there in the room with me, even though he lived clear across the country. I wasn’t familiar with the term “twin flames” back then. All I knew was that our connection was something else. We totally got each other on a deep level, spiritually.
How I Knew He Was My Twin Flame
Funnily enough, when I first met my twin flame, I wasn’t really attracted to him at all, but something deep down told me he was different. He seemed way more mature and intelligent than most guys, and he was also into spiritual stuff like me.
When we first met, he asked me something like, “Do you believe there’s more to life than just our physical bodies?” That really got my attention. Plus, I had been single for so long and always thought being with someone would make me happy.
Spirituality has been my thing for over 30 years, and it turned out we were both into all the same stuff. So I started liking him more and more. Like I said before, he would text me sometimes when I was already thinking about him. And every time I thought of him, I noticed the time would be like 22:22 or 1212 on the clock.
After a while, I started feeling attracted to him, not just spiritually but physically, too. There was even a time when I was thinking about us living together, and it was like I could feel his presence in the room with me. It all felt too real to be a coincidence.
Our Mirroring
I started hanging out with him more and more, and I really couldn’t figure out if I actually liked him or not. He could be really sweet and smart, good company most of the time. But sometimes, he’d do things that really bugged me. And it’s like he was totally living up to being a Scorpio – every now and then, he’d just sting me out of nowhere, right where it hurt.
It felt like he knew how much I hated people being late, but he was late every single time we met up. It didn’t make me angry exactly, I mean we had this real connection, but deep down it still bothered me because he was purposely doing the things I couldn’t stand.
He told me once that he’d been holding onto anger toward women for a long time since his mother was so abusive to him. And then, one time, he said he was glad he met me because it made him realize not all women are the same. So I guess in a way, I showed him just because of what happened with his mom, that didn’t mean he should view all women the same way.
When It Started Going Downhill
Fast forward, we were traveling all over Europe together and spending a ton of time with each other. After a while, we started talking about maybe moving in together. The more time we spent together, the stronger our bond became. I really saw him as my future husband and the father of my kids.
At first, I wasn’t that into him, but the attraction just grew so powerful. One day, I straight up told him, “Let’s move in together and really build something here.” But he told me, “Can you give me some time? I need to take a trip and clear my head.”
The next week he sends this really long message about how he’s feeling and how sad he is. He apologized but said he couldn’t be with me anymore. He admitted that he’s actually attracted to men but couldn’t accept it. But he said I helped him realize some things about himself. He was grateful for me and didn’t want to lose me as a friend.
My twin flame broke my heart, he left it in a million tiny pieces. For a while there, it really felt like the whole world was crashing down. I was just so devastated..
I’m Now Stronger And Wiser
It took me about a year to really come to terms with the breakup. It was tough but also kind of freeing in a way. I really just wanted what was best for him. Once I accepted it happened, I realized we split for a reason. When we first got together, he was a lot like me, with some not-so-great habits that I learned to work on. And I taught him a lot too, especially when it came to feeling comfortable with who he is. Now, he could really be his true self.
It really made me focus on myself and learn how to love myself again. For so long, my self-worth was all about his love and attention. I relied on him to make me feel good about myself. But when he left, I had to find that self-love and confidence from within myself.
Slowly, through writing in a journal, meditating, and getting back into my own hobbies, I rebuilt my relationship with myself. I started doing little things each day just for me, like taking a bubble bath, cracking open a book, or going for a hike.
I Learned That I Didn’t Need A Partner To Make Me Happy
I used to think that true happiness came from other people – you know, finding that perfect person who would make me feel complete. But then I went through this really messy breakup that just shattered me. It was so painful.
But looking back, coming out of that relationship actually ended up being the best thing for me. It really pushed me to focus on myself for once. I started to realize that I already had everything I needed right within me. Loving myself unconditionally and being at peace on my own – that’s when I really felt whole.
After that, when I was ready to start dating again, I came at it from such a different place. I knew that no matter what happened with anyone else, I was gonna be just fine. That made such a big difference.
The biggest lesson they taught me was how to truly love myself. To be gentle with myself through it all. Even after we parted ways, I’ll always be grateful for what we shared and how it changed me for the better. Sometimes, the people who change your life the most are the ones who teach you to find your way back to yourself.
My Advice For Others Going Through A Twin Flame Breakup
Going through a breakup with your twin flame is brutal. The heart break hurts way worse than any other breakup I’ve been through. But you know what, looking back now, I really learned a lot from it. It really helped me grow as a person. Sure, it sucked majorly at the time, but I can see now how much that experience taught me.
Let Yourself Feel The Pain
I know it’s really tough going through whatever you’re dealing with right now. The easy thing would be to try and block it out or avoid dealing with your feelings. But trust me, that’ll only make it worse later on. I know it hurts, but you have to let yourself really feel whatever you’re feeling – whether that’s sadness, anger, or whatever. Cry if you need to, talk to friends, write in a journal, and do whatever helps you process it all.
Learn The Lessons
There are some deep lessons to take from this experience with your twin flame. They probably showed you things about yourself that you really needed to see. Like they held up a mirror and reflected both the good and bad parts of who you are. But you have to look for what you can learn from it all. Think about the lessons and how you can apply them to become an even better person. And I know some of the toughest life lessons can lead to the most personal growth.
Have Faith In Love
I know the relationship didn’t work out, but that doesn’t mean the bond is completely gone. The love I have for my person and what they taught me will always stick with me. If we’re really meant to be together, twin flames will find their way back to each other when the timing is perfect for both.
Also, I’ve learned that twin flames don’t necessarily need to be lovers. Me and my person, my gay twin flame, we’re not romantic anymore but he’s still one of my best friends. He’s always here for me, and I can’t picture my life without him – just as friends this time.
